Ok, new blog time. I've been trying to think about what to blog about next. For some reason I feel the need to somehow write something deep, meaningful, and life changing every time I get on here. I was thinking how I'd write about politics, economics, or something equally drab. And somehow convince everyone of my brilliance. Why I feel the need to impress people with a blog no one reads I can't understand. But, I guess writing is deeply personal for me. Somehow it allows me to express myself where I have very few other outlets to do this so intimately. But, I guess all this to say. I'm not going to write about any of that tonight. I wanted to write about myself and sort through some things that were running through my head; keeping me from being productive at work today.
So it begins with this thought I had that I'm gonna start putting in some ground work into getting my MBA. In other words start studying for the GMAT, start looking into what schools are best, and what all I need to do to make it happen. I work at GA TECH and they will pay for it so money won't be much of an issue. It really come down to time and commitment.
Then last night, I was reading this website. INFJ.com. It’s a personality website. I'm by Meyers-Brigg a INFJ. I won't get into specifics but, I find all this pshycobable stuff interesting so I like reading up on it. Anyways, they had an article about the Purpose of Life on this website. The article suggested an interesting experiment. Write the question What is the purpose of life? down and write down answers till you find the one that strikes you. That is your purpose of life. Me being the sentimental sob I am decided to give it a shot. I say I wrote for a good 30-40 minutes. Nothing.
Ok so fast-forward to today. Not only have I come up with anything but, this thought permeates my entire day. Really creating a vacuumous void in where I can get nothing accomplished but, think about this all consuming thought all day. What is the Purpose of Life? So this of course gets me thinking about this MBA. Why do I want an MBA? To what purpose does this suit me. I won't lie the idea of advanced education makes me warm and fuzzy inside. So in that way it all makes sense. But, why an MBA. Other than of course I was a finance major. But, truley what is the point of me getting an MBA. What is I want to do with my life that spending all this time, effort, and money (well your money anyhow great citizens of Georgia). To what purpose. Higher education is a lofty goal for sure. But, shouldn't i have a purpose other than to try have another symbol of my intelligence. After all I think this is the reason I ended up in Applebee's after graduating college. With a 3.72 GPA in Finance from UGA. I waited tables for over a year. Why? No fucking clue what to do with my life. Quite disturbing and not any fun let me assure you. So in a sense I think I am trying to rush this MBA on the grounds it gives me a tangible goal. Something to work for. While my reasoning is sound my intentions are not quite so. I don't know if I see myself in high finance or working in some business for the man all that nonsense. I'm not really sure what all that means. I need to engage something a little more meaningful in my life. Maybe it isn't even a career. Maybe I'm looking for some idea or philosophy on what I consider to be meaningful in life.
Anyways. This is getting quite long and all to say really. I don't know. I've always envied those who knew what there calling in life was even if it was damn near impossible to achieve. Those who put themselves on the line and are willing to fail for some idea of what they believe in is their calling. I know I'm still working on it. And as a brief sidebar I am trying to exclude God and spirituality in this conversation. For reasons that would take a whole other blog to explain. But, just to say. We all have are here for reason. Whether we are here through God or by chance. We are given this time we should do something with the time we have. I fear squandered time. When we are all given such talents; time wasted not putting them to good use is a shame.
Well this all got unintentionally sappy. For that I apologize. I guess it beats paying for therapy though huh? But, if you sat through reading all this I truly appreciate it. I just have to write things out sometimes to get my head all straightened out. And for some reason if I think there is an audience it helps me organize everything a little bit better. Instead of random ramblings you'd find in my journals. So it appears this is the direction this blog site will be taking. Just random thoughts about my life. I actually wanted to stay away from this exact kind of blog. Thus why I was going to write about Hillary, minimum wage ,or why libertarinism is the best. Well. Maybe that will still happen. But, until it does. Thanks for just listening.
Michael
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