Random Balogna (Take it for what it is worth)

It is late. I should be in bed. It seems like these are always the times I find myself sitting at my computer searching for deep insight. Understanding. Knowledge. Truth.

For as long as I can remember my only true passion was the pursuit of knowledge. I remember being ecstatic as my Mother taught me to read. The key to unlock the entire world and she was placing it in my hands. Since then books have been life. School, learning, in the classroom is where I felt most alive. In my room by myself with my books I feel relevant. Thats is what I crave. My goal: learn something new everyday.

This life isn't about a career and isn't about accomplishments. It isn't about the knowledge stored in my head and it isn't about the next morsel I crave to learn.

It is about passion. It is about happiness. It is about now.

I want to go back to school so bad I can taste it. I want a job that challenges my intellect on a daily basis. I want to know it all. Create success in my life and in others. Use my mind to transform the world into a better place than I came into it.

Drive and desire are good. They are not now, they are not passion, they are not happiness. I know once I go to school get my MBA, find a better job, devour all the knowledge my mind can handle. None of that will matter. Accomplishments, bigger paychecks, gold medals, degrees and honors, recognition, and "success". Is not what life is about.

We only control ourself in the now. This moment. This moment is the only moment you will ever have. Past and future are irrelevant. You control yourself only in the now. That is where happiness, satisfaction, love, life, God, and meaning come.

Stop waiting till tomorrow. When maybe you'll have a little more money, a little more prestige, a little more whatever.

Experience today.