Well. I feel like blogging. About what I have no idea so we will just see what happens. I like to do this from time to time. Just sit down start writing and see what comes out. It is a good way to see exactly what is going on inside.
But, I just got done with dinner. An elegant white wine cream sauce and salmon. I'm sitting here finishing off my white wine trying not to feel too metrosexual about the fact that I just cooked a salmon in white cream sauce all from scratch. It was scrumptious by the way. In fact if I had a date tonight I'd be getting so lucky right now.
But, I don't really know what the point of all that was. But, all this sophistication has me in a contemplative mood. I have been thinking about my previous post quite a bit today. I even went on drive today just to see if I could travel the road a little less travelled find something new. It was mildly successful. It got me out of the house. I have gotten a little stir crazy over the past few weeks. So its nice to get and stretch my legs even if it is a nice Saturday cruise in the Nova.
I've been thinking about my life lately and exactly what I'm looking to get out it nonsense. I'm not a young college kid anymore and my impending career and the rest of my life loom omniously on the horizon. It all can be very intimidating for a 24 year old. The whole quarter life crisis thing is real. Its tough to know exactly what path you see your life taking when you still young enough to feel like you can take on the world but, old enough to realize your limits. I've always struggled with what I wanted to be when I was grown up. Well I'm almost grown up now (I suppose) and I still struggle with it. I finally have a good job and the beginnings of what I suppose grown up people call a career. It just sounds weird saying career. It seems that it is a word best reserved for young executives not someone who sits in a cubicle all week and still drinks too much on the weekends.
I think the point is we are always trapping ourselves into what we should be or what we are working for we lose sight of what we are doing in the present. Don't get my wrong it is important to plan for the future have goals, set priorites, and all that responsibilty shit. But, sometimes its better to take a giant breath and take a look around what is going on in real time. What is important to you today. Not tommorow. For as far as we know there may not be a tommorow. It is easy to do. When your day if full of just making it through the day or week. I think it is important to remeber the simple things that make life all worth living. Like hanging out with a good friend or calling a good friend you havn't heard from in a long time. Obviously friends mean a lot to me. Mainly because I know where I'd be if I didn't have the great friends I've had in my life. It isn't a pretty place so I'm not going to paint the picture. I feel that is what life is all about. Those moments you spend with people that are special to you. I know it is one of the most important things to me. If I didn't have a great career or all my greatest dreams never came true. If I had someone to share all that I do have with. I'd be happy and content.
Well I'm going to quit writing now. Maybe more blogs to come next week.
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